Tough question with even tougher answers. 

This year has tested my resolve, my patience, my relationships, my will to grow, and my sanity.  I was challenged to become the person I was born to be and I have grown as a result.  I fought it the whole way and continue to self sabotage myself.  The journey to discovering your God given purpose is a hard one.  I tell myself, "The fact that you are still breathing is evidence enough you still have something to do on this Earth AND God has the faith in YOU to DO IT!"

I can try to run away from it.  To bury myself in pleasures or distractions and convince myself I am living a worthwhile life, but in the end I know in my heart when I have not done what I was supposed to do.  That realization opened up my heart and mind.  It allowed me to see how to fulfill my purpose that I have know about, but felt powerless to pursue much less complete.  It is wholly terrifying yet satisfying to know what must be done to fulfill your destiny.

As reality sets in on the enormity of the Goliath I face to fulfill that purpose a certain peace comes over me.  Why, because I CANNOT FAIL when I am doing what God wants me to do.  I know full well that I may not see that purpose fulfilled in my lifetime and I can accept that.  It is what my children see that matters most.  Did I fight when the war was waging?  Did I stand up and say enough is enough?  Or was I a victim of my vices?  

I choose to draw my sword and slice through the chains that bind me.  For my sword is blessed by the tongues of God's eternal fire that burns in the hearts of all men.  I will go forth and light that fire anew in the hearts of thousands so they may draw their swords that may have rusted or seemed broken.  They will be empowered to cut those chains that bind them. 

That is the legacy I will leave to this world.  The ball will be rolling well after I no longer draw breath.  Generations of people will be inspired to become more and fulfill their own God given destinies.  It is a choice I must make every day and some days I fail to make the right choices.  I am forever thankful for every day that I get another chance to do it right.  Growing is tough and sometimes painful.  If it was not would it be worth it?  

If you are unhappy with your situation you owe it to yourself to do something different.  If you want change, then change.  I encourage you to find out what it is you are supposed to be doing.  For when you do it will change your life for the better forever.  I promise that it will be worth it.  

Pray like it is up to God, work like it is up to you.